Hey bookworms! I would’ve posted this with my Wrap-Up and TBR I posted recently, but my computer decided to misbehave. Anywho I wanted to just talk to you guys and tell you what is going on. School is done after this coming up week excluding my Theory Exam which is due online the 13th, but I really want to try and get it done early. Honestly I am so glad this has been the least stressful set of exams I’ve had in my college/university experience! Speaking of school my last critique for creative writing is on Wednesday! I am nervous, but excited hearing feedback is really pushing me to keep going at it. It is a good yet nervewracking feeling for me to be inspired again. I just don’t want to lose the fire for this one again! I can’t believe fall will be my last semester! By the way was I the only one who didn’t know you have to pay to apply for graduation?
Back to my feelings about words, writing, and books .I posted this on FB earlier because I was looking for inspiration and comfort with my writing, so I thought I would share it:
Watching JK Rowling’s interview with Oprah. Just wanting the inspiration and reminding me why I keep going. I’ve had this dream since I was six. Books and authors have always given me an escape, letting me do things I can’t, and helping me overcome. I hope I can keep on a roll this summer on my piece. I just wish I had someone to cuddle with whilst I watch. Books can change/save/help lives. Leave an imprint on people. I want to do that
Writing and reading have always been where I grounded myself when I was younger, and yes I struggle with letting it do that now that I’m older, but I want to give others hope too. When they feel they have no voice, or words. I have felt like that lately even though I’m having good moments lately.
I said I was going to talk about my journey with my Cerebral Palsy earlier in the month in my previous Life Updates, and this post will contain part of that. I am going to see a therapist on Thursday to get evaluated. A symptom of CP can be depression. I’ve felt it in High School, but brushed it off as low self-esteem and family issues. When I first started college though that’s when it got worse, and my anxiety has gotten worse too especially in crowds. I feel lost and no sense of control… Honestly I hope they agree to see me regularly because I just need to feel I have a safe place to speak. To know what I say won’t be told to another and that someone will just hear me. I hate not having some control, and only knowing in 5 years I want to be far away from here, but no idea where.
There is some good news though I did find somewhere that will help me get a job and plan to get in touch with them as soon as the semester is done. They specialize in helping people work who have any kind of disability, and I just want to stay productive, build a resume, gain experiences, and hopefully new friends.
Well that is all I have to say for now Bookworms. Sorry if this book was a bit all over the place, but I just wanted to talk about the next steps in this journey. I am not my disability, but it is part of me. Sometimes it makes my life difficult, but I want to make a difference. Not to be an inspiration because of it, but because of my passion. Again I am only speaking for my experience with CP not any one else’s. Everyone has a different story. Happy reading bookworms and have a good week!