Life Update: Chaos and the Coming Days

Hey Bookworms! I needed to write something and I didn’t know what to write in this fog of sadness and pain. This isn’t just going to be about books, but about my LDR, the weather, a few points about my cerebral palsy, COVID-19, but yes I will talk about books. Let’s get started!

Chaos and the Coming Days

LDR

So first off let me start off by saying today is hard. It was supposed to be my first day with my boyfriend. I work hospitality, so when at work I receive all the updates about what we’re canceling, borders that are closing, and travel bans. When we got the notification that cancellations were happening at least until the 14th of April (it is my weekend, so I haven’t seen any newer updates since Sunday).

I knew on Saturday, I would have to change my ticket. It hurt like hell to do because at this point I haven’t seen him in 4 months.  I was supposed to leave in 2 days at that point to spend, 6 nights, and 5 days together. The most time we have spent together in a while. Not to mention this is the first time in 2 years, we have spent a birthday a part, this is what hurts the worst.

While I have a new flight booked for May with a new flexible change policy, just in case. (I am so grateful for Westjet being so helpful and understanding). I am praying this all calms down by then. My family and friends are all saying at least you are both healthy and safe, but it doesn’t mean it didn’t crack our hearts open.

I am trying to remain patient and hopeful as this is what all LDR’s are built off of. I am sending my positive thoughts out to others separated by these closures. I am trying to find comfort and not jealousy of the couples that are currently together even when it’s hard, as this is what we have to look forward to.

The Weather, Cerebral Palsy, and COVID-19

This is probably one of the few times you’ll hear me talking about my CP because although it a part of me, I try to not let it define me. I also don’t want people to assume my experience with CP is the same as another person with  CP.  Like most disabilities and disorders it is on a spectrum and has different types (which is what I hope anybody who writes about this disability includes this notes because it can set false expectations and be harmful to those who are uneducated).

While COVID-19 is affecting a lot of people with different immune deficiencies, disabilities, disorders, the young, and people over 50.  Some people with Cerebral Palsy do have weakened immune systems, thankfully, I have not been one of those people. I have only been sick at least once a year in my life if that (not including allergies), and some of those were self inflicted by being a stubborn child by and not eating when I was supposed to, often times for a full day, or weather changing rapidly.

With this extended winter we’ve been facing (the groundhog lied…), my body has been paying the price. I have been aching and swelling for weeks as the weather is on the roller coaster it is and possibly having another disability that may tie into this pain (which I can’t get checked until Fall again). I am more afraid of how my body pain is affecting me more this year than it has before than I am of a virus, because I know my body can fight it. I know I am practicing the right things, and I am trying to remain calm, because stress and anxiety can weaken the immune system.

Work

I don’t tend to talk much about work on here. Thankfully I still have work, and I am trying to stay calm and positive again. Putting money in savings and trying to be diligent. I am sending all good thoughts for those of you who can’t go to work and I am hoping my work stays consistent.

Days I am Home

On my days I have off which is a 3 day weekend this weekend because I didn’t feel it was fair to go into work on my birthday this year due to everything that went on last week. I am spending my 28th on March 18th at home, with my family, cake, books, and a movie binge. I know a lot of us are worried with the actual libraries shut down, but there is still Overdrive and Libby if you have WiFi or data access to download when you don’t have access to either.

We have each other, this blogging community, our words to reach each other even when these borders are shut down.

Want to work out, look up exercises to do at home, when I am not in pain I try to move as much as possible.

Board games, so you can keep your mind going, video games, movies and books that will make you think.

Sing, get lost in music, dance, write a poem, if your mind starts to wander in the wrong way redirect it or at least distract it.

Create don’t let your mind focus on the panic as that’s when we become our worst selves. Most importantly be kind, try not to panic buy, to help others who need the resources. This is something I stick buy as I can’t always get out due to my current state.

We are all stronger that the remenants that 2019 is holding over us. I refuse to blame 2020 for this as this started last year hence the name. 2020 is trying to teach us to be strong, calm, patient, and kind. Don’t let 2019’s left overs turn is into scared sheep.

I am going to try and practice all these suggestions, and I hope you all do too. I hope this rant stayed somewhat coherent. Happy Reading Bookworms, stay calm healthy, and safe!

 

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Movie Monday: Mirai (Spoiler Free)

Hey Bookworms and Movie Lovers! I know I haven’t posted in a while, but I wanted to post before the thoughts leave my head. Especially because this was a movie I waited for what feels like a long while to … Continue reading

Let’s Just Chat: Just a chance to get my words going

Hey Bookworms! I dunno what this post is going to be about or even if it will go up. I just miss you all and wanted to talk. I know this would be better to go on social media with this but I dunno I wanted to make my blog a little more personal. I have a few things on my mind. I really want this year to be a year of growth. A year to impact others. Whether it’s in my personal life or on here. The internet the void where people go to feel like there a part of something different. This is where you can see that you are not alone.

 

I honestly have no idea where this is going, but as much as 2017 was an adventure it did have some rough parts. Family stuff, feeling a lack of growth in my job, taking a risk by trying my relationship again. The things I learned from my roughest years of 2015-to the beginning of 2017 is I can’t live my life wondering what if? My biggest struggle with these realization is not knowing where or even how to begin to start my research.

 

I think that has always been my struggle. RESEARCH. It is hard to implement for me in writing and to keep focused on it. I want to prove to the world that my disability isn’t a huge part of me only a faction. This is why I’ve got it in my head that I need a job where I can leave my mark. I want it to be in my writing but we all need a day job too right?

I want to read and find myself lost in words again. I also want to have words spill out of me again. As much as I want to finish my “Pack’s” story maybe it’s time to pull out someone else’s voice until I can hear there’s again. This isn’t writing block for me anymore, it’s deafening silence and it unsettles me.

I think my mind, creative soul, and heart needs something new to grow. I want to figure out a way to get to Vancouver, Canada. I am gonna bring a notebook for my Birthday Trip in March. I am going to see what the world whispers to me.

I don’t want to feel lost again, I am determined to start finding my path again. Adventure coaxing words and ideas out of me again. I feel everyday I feel closer to finding myself again and becoming the person I need to be.

Is anyone trying to find themselves again this year, or trying to find a way to plan your newest route? Anyone moved to a new country? Anyone feel like you need to break free of the mold people place on you? Let me know in the comments down below as much as I am here to talk, I am also here to listen. Happy Reading!

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Spring Wrap-Up: Books That Kept Me Company During My Favorite Season

Hey Bookworms! I thought since I haven’t done the best with monthly reviews… I think I’ve maybe done one this year? I thought a seasonal wrap-up may make more sense until I figure out my next steps with blogging, writing, working, and traveling. I like sharing what I’ve read because it gives me a chance to look back on how my reading habits have grown change, how I’ve been called to read what I’ve read. So let’s get started!

Spring Wrap-Up: Books That Have Bloomed with Me this Spring

Now before I start, I want to clarify what I count as spring, because even though most go off a calendar. I think it goes more off of the climate of where you live, so for me (since I’ve lived in Vegas all my life) it starts in March and ends in May. These books will begin with books I began in March and the last one I finished in May which was a total of 19 books! I am slightly proud because I just realized that is how many I read in 3 months! Yay me!

1.  Truthwitch by Susan Dennard

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My first audiobook of the season. I loved the friendship, and the essence behind the magic, but the world and what gave everyone their magic or who had what power tended to lose my attention a bit. I didn’t know if it was worth the hype it got entirely as the way I fell in and out some parts did seem a little erratic. I don’t know if I will be continuing it, but overall I gave this book a 3 out of 5 stars.

2. The Great Hunt by Wendy Higgins

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This book was exactly what I needed when I was in a slump. It kept my attention the whole time and I liked getting to know each of these characters. I loved knowing the royalty, but not knowing when the sequel came out it made me give it a 4 out of 5 stars. I definitely recommend this book to anyone in a reading slump that likes an adventurous tale.

3. The Wolf Boy is Mine Vol. 4 by Yoko Nogiri

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Oh my godI loved this series! It is my new favorite Manga for sure it is gorgeous artwork and for me a relatable series at least with the main love interest. I just finished this series and I already want to read it again! 5 out of 5 stars honestly I’d give it a 10 out of 5 if it was possible.

 

4. Front Lines by Michael Grant

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This was definitely an amazing going back in time seeing what would’ve changed if girls were allowed to fight in WWII. It also shows you what bravery looks like and that it isn’t always a simple thing.

5. Bloodhound by Tamora Pierce

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A reread to finish a series and I loved it as much as I did the first time. Tamora Pierce was one of my first examples of what a strong female should be, and Beka is no exception to that rule. Her books were also the first to show me love is love and to show that the LGBT is not something should ashamed or hidden.

6. We are Okay by Nina LaCour

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This book is written beyond goregously, it made me feel every emotion written. I really don’t have much to say besides READ IT! 5 out of 5 stars!!

7. Mastiff by Tamora Pierce

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Without spoiling all I have to say is damn this was an unexpected heartwrenching plot twists. My heart definitely was broken I am still healing over this… 5 out of 5 stars though!

8. Wildflower by Drew Barrymore

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As a lover of her movies I adored getting to know more about her life. If you’re listening to the audio book, be careful because there are times she gets loud at times. The only thing that I didn’t really love is that it was sporadic, I know it fits her personality it wasn’t my favorite as a reader. 4 out of 5 stars.

9.  Masquerade by Melissa De La Cruz

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Another comfort reread it was good to see more of the powers emerging as well as the flashbacks 4 out of 5 stars.

10. Saga Vol 7 by  Brian K. Vaughan (Writer), Fiona Staples (Artist)

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Really amazing the plot twist at the end though!!! I need volume 8! 4 out of 5 stars!

11.  A Mad, Wicked Folly by  Sharon Biggs Waller

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I loved this because it definitely introduced me to a period that isn’t touched much on in fiction. The period of the suffragette. I definitely recommend if you love historical fiction. 4 out of 5 stars.

12. The Time of My Life by Cecelia Ahern

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Another reread that I read as a pick me up. I love her books that use magical realism it makes you think outside of the box or even makes you take a step back to look at your own life. 4 out of 5 stars.

13. The Host by Stephenie Meyer

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Another reread and one of my favorite love stories and one I can definitely relate to. Whenever I feel reluctant to believe in love this is definitely one I turn to.

14.  Talking as Fast as I Can by Lauren Graham

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I listened to this on the plane ride back from Vancouver. Her story for me was very inspiring her persistence and what she worked for until she made it is inspiring to any artist. The behind the scenes of Gilmore Girls was also a fun glimpse as well.

15. Up in Flames by Abbi Glines

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I know I don’t like to call things guilty pleasures, and these books aren’t exactly guilty pleasures. They are however simple reads that don’t require too much thought especially as I get older. It also bothers me that these books have to end in a pregnancy. I believe in the New Adult Genre, but I also like when it shows safe sex showing the couples pursuing finding other paths as well. I know not every one thinks like me, so I hope I’m not offending anyone by being honest. Anywho this was a 3 out of 5 stars for me.

16. Rebel by Amy Tintera

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I liked this book, but it didn’t meet what I loved in the first book. There was an overdone cliche near the end that I’ve read in 2 books this year, but this book did twist it to an unexpected way, so it did save it. This was a 3 out of 5 stars.

17. Until Friday Night by Abbi Glines

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Again same feelings as the previous Abbi Glines book, but I did like some of the topics this touched. 3 out of 5 stars.

18. Revolution by Jennifer Donnelly

Revolution

I really love this book and how it’s not only about healing, but grieving and trying to change the world whether it’s for someone close to you or others. This is a great coming of age book that I adore and I recommend it to everyone. This one is also what got me back into historical fiction. 5 out of 5 stars!

19. Just Listen by Sarah Dessen

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Rereading this took me back to high school and how I would just devour contemporary. Sarah Dessen let me know back then that you could come back from whatever broke you. Her books were often ones that kept me going. It was nice to reread and see how far I’ve come.

Well bookworms I’m finally done with this post. I’ve been working on and off on this today for a few hours. What books kept you company this spring? What ones kept a mark on you? Did you reread old favorites? What do you wish to see more of in a genre? Have you read any of these? Let me know in the comments, let’s chat! I hope you have a wonderful week, and Happy Reading!

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Book Talk: I’m Slumping Again and Life Updates

Hey bookworms! It’s me Chantal the little short redheaded book blogger that used to blog a lot more.. Hope I’m not fading from your memory jk… Kinda… It’s time for a random book talk even though I know we’ve talked … Continue reading

December Book Challenge: Day 3&4

Hey bookworms! It’s time for another December Challenge post created by the lovely Annreads. If your curious on my first post, give it a click. I know, I am already behind on this challenge thing, but this week was hectic. … Continue reading

Movie Monday: All Good Things, Must Come to an End… My Thoughts on Once Upon a Time Season 6

Hey Bookworms! I’m baaack! It’s time for a Movie Monday post which is one of my features in which I talk about, fangirl, or  review my favorite shows, animes, and movies. And if you can’t tell from my extremely long … Continue reading

Top Ten Tuesday: Audiobook Mania

Hey Bookworms! See I told you I’d have another post for you. I really do miss this community, so I’m going to try and commit my weekends more to blogging for you all. I hope you all miss me too.. … Continue reading

September Haul: Books, Movies, and More

Hey bookworms! I promise I will learn the swing of work and blogging soon. It’s just hard to be on the computer on my weekends, when that is what I do all day for work. Good news is I plan on getting glasses soon, so that  should make being on it for work and home easier.

But anywho I thought it would be fun to show one of the benefits of having a job. Which is treating myself to stuff like my addictions every once in a while. So here is what I treated myself to in September!

September Haul

The Books:

Saga Volume 6 by Brian K. Vaughan and Fiona Staples

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Citrus Volume 5 by Saburo Uto

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The Fangirl Life: A Guide to All the Feels and Learning How to Deal by Kathleen Smith

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There is an interesting story with these first three… Well not funny exactly I originally ordered copies of these in March, but they were shipped to my old address and never got forwarded… I hope who ever is living there is enjoying the books, so I had a coupon and decided to get them all over again. I am sure they are worth it though.

Twilight of Avalon by Anna Elliot

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The Isle of the Lost by Melissa De La Cruz

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The Game of Love and Death by Martha Brockenbrough

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The Movies:

The Boy and the Beast

The Boy and the Beast

If you’re curious about this movie I did do a review on this movie which I gushed for… Here

The Intern

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What a Girl Wants/Chasing Liberty

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Raising Helen

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No Reservations

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Laws of Attraction

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Ramen Girl

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So if you haven’t figured it out I have a movie addiction on top of these movies I also bought a movie binder that holds 400 DVDs… Yeah I was a little bad, but most excluding the first were $10 and under! So no regrets… For now XD

&More:

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Lastly I bought this adorable and super soft Umbreon pillow pet at the Tokyo Discount store near my house. He is one of my favorite eeveelutions and I couldn’t resist buying him. Now if only they had an Espeon then I would have my favorite Pokemon Ship. May they will one day.

I’m doing good at savings, but sometimes when I’ve had a hard day at work small things such as books or movies on sale makes it a little better. Working at a call center isn’t easy as a first job, but it is teaching me skills I can carry to a job I feel passionate about. There are rough days, but there are also days where I really like my job. It is a stepping stone to what and where I want to be in life.

Have you read or watched any of these? What is your favorite pokemon? What do you indulge in when you’re feeling stressed. Let me know! I miss you all and now I am off to schedule some more posts for you all! Happy Reading and Watching!

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Life Update and Weekly Reads

Hey Bookworms! Miss me??? I know I’ve been MIA, but I’m still adjusting to the working world… Honestly my days off aren’t used for much more other than sleep and maybe a trip to the grocery store. I’m hoping I’ll have more energy this week though because my schedule got changed to 8-5 pm Tuesday-Saturday, but long story short I get more sleep and I don’t have to wake up at 3 am to get ready for work. I can’t tell you where I’m working, but it is a call center job and most days besides the cranky callers I love helping people.

As for other stuff although having a job is a good thing it may mean longer to save for my own place because I will have to pay for medical insurance now… Which also means adding to how long it takes for Grad School. Every day is still a bit of a struggle for me but I’m trying to take it day by day and week by week and trying to see some bright spots.

Like I’ve made a new friend who lives close to me and I love that she’s bookish! I can pile books on her bit by bit.

But anywho lets get on to the books. Since I probably won’t get to do a Friday Reads with my schedule the way it is for a few weeks. I decided to do a Weekly Reads, so I can still share with you all what I’m trying to read this week. So let’s get started!

Weekly Reads

Harry Potter and the Cursed Child by J.K. Rowling, John Tiffany, Jack Thorne

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This is slow reading for me because my post office held it hostage for 2 days, so I’m reading it in between resting, and I plan to read it on my lunch hour too. No spoilers please because I’m only on page 80ish.

A Thousand Pieces of You by Claudia Gray

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This will be my audiobook listen for the bus for the first half of the week. I’m enjoying the concept so far, but very few books have left a mark on me this year with my mood, so we’ll see most books have earned a 3.5 (aka a 4 stars on Goodreads from me) I am glad I am reading it after the hype though

Crimson Bound by Rosamund Hodge

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This will be my other audiobook. I do have high hopes for it since Cruel Beauty was my favorite of last year. Hey I can hope!

Well that’s all for now Bookworms! It is time for me to head to bed although I am a little nervous for tomorrow since it’s our first day without our wonderful mentors. I am just taking this week day by day and doing my best to help each person. Anywho have you read any of these books? What were your thoughts? Any tips for how to blog around working? Let me know in the comments down below. I need all the help I can get please! Happy Reading!

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