Movie Monday: Joker (Spoilers)

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Hey bookworms!  Long time, no talk, but I will explain more when I can. I saw Joker with my lovely boyfriend on Saturday (11/16). I have a lot of thoughts on this movie, like the couple who decided to take their young children to the movie like one was 4 or 5…?  Anywho this is kinda gonna be a review, my thoughts on it and the character, and a partial analysis. I am rusty at this but I miss sharing my thoughts with you all, so please be kind.

Joker

Movie Title: Joker

Release Date: 4 October 19

Film Company: Warner Bros

Rated: R

Genre: Crime, Drama, Thriller

Director: Todd Phillips

Starring: Joaquin Phoenix, Robert DeNiro, Zazie Beetz

Format Watched in: In Theaters

Runtime: 122 minutes

My Rating: 2.5 Out of 5 Stars

DC Disclosure

Before I get this started, I am gonna be honest I am not the biggest DC fan. By not the biggest, I mean the spectrum of what I’ve watched is Cartoon Network’s original Teen Titans Go! and some of the newer versions of the same comics. I’ve always been more of a Marvel girl. I’m not by no means saying one is better than the other, but I am disclosing I don’t know much.

Why I Chose to Watch It

1. I chose to watch it, I really like Joaquin Phoenix. He has played some good roles in films that I’ve watched with him and he has always brought authenticity and genuine feeling to each role and film he has been in. Knowing he was cast as this controversial character I thought, he would make me have genuine feelings, empathy, and understand this character.

2. After all this time, I was still hearing the hype of this movie, and I know normally I am not one to jump on the bandwagon while it’s still in theaters, and if I am still curious about it after it comes out of theaters, I redbox it. That being said with this movie it is all I heard about whenever I was at work or out and about, so it was only a matter of time before I got spoiled on key points.

3. It is an origin story, I am a huge sucker for these, I love knowing why people act the way the do, what shaped them on the path they were on. Was it a circumstance of nature or nurture? Fate or Decision? These are all things that I think about when I read or watch about any character whether they’re a hero, villain, or Anti-hero (which are my favorite), but that is a story for another day. So when I saw the preview for this of such a iconic character. It had my curiosity and brain going.

4.  My boyfriend was visiting, and when he comes here I finally have the movie buddy I need. We usually pick one or two each and this was his choice and I asked him to wait to watch it, so I could treat him to this as a Christmas present. Don’t get me wrong I love a violent movie, but more so when it comes to action, but when it comes to Thrillers/ horror, I am the biggest baby and I am not ashamed to admit it, like majority of it in his chest or shoulder. He enjoys both DC and Marvel so this was something, he enjoyed.

What Caused Problems for Me

1. I couldn’t separate the art from the artist, now what I mean is Joaquin went VERY method in this. Which I can understand with what everything Joker is put through in this movie and the character’s life. The thing that makes method acting hard for me is with the extreme weight loss or gain for an actor based on a character. Seeing an actor at their own healthy weight and seeing the drastic change. I shudder, that being said Joaquin lost a lot of weight for this movie I am talking can see how his shoulder was dislocated, count his ribs, and every notch of his spine. Every time seeing him with a shirt off I was beyond uncomfortable, like cringing and wanting to cry at the sight of his body. It didn’t gain sympathy for Joker as I couldn’t see the character but only the actor.

2. Was his health really the cause for what he went through. Now don’t get me wrong I’ve been picked on and bullied for my own health both mental and physical, but I’ve chosen to take the right steps in life even if I’ve only had myself in my own corner. He chose to put a lot of blame on other people, the ones that mocked him, his parents, his coworkers. I am not negating his right to be angry especially when the children were horrid, or his coworker threw him under the bus. I know he had trauma and his disability that but his track was extreme. I know he is the villain, but I heard you were supposed to feel bad for him. Point blank I just didn’t, if anything it made me more scared of him.

The Good Parts

1. I liked how it emphasized that the mental health care system is struggling, and yes I knew this movie took place in the 70’s, but history is really repeating itself here. It is showing our economy or country. We work jobs that don’t give us the best insurance, or we don’t have the resources to find a job understanding of our disabilities or needs. This was an important theme and yes, I may have been reading too much into the movie, but it is important and hopefully the voice will lead to a change.

2.  The questioning between realities, what was the reality of the real world and what was in Joker’s head and even in his own mother’s mind. It led to so many great plot twists and made you want certain things to be cannon. This was the part that made you feel the real empathy for him, when you thought he had someone who cared about him, to have that really ripped away when the “truth” hit. I love movies that make you question what is real.

Ending Thoughts

I hope I am not stepping on anybody’s toes with these differing opinions or that I am not part of the fandom, but it was really fun to share and get out my thoughts about such a poignant movie.

I know this was a movie that pointed out that we shouldn’t pretend, we’re not feeling what we are, or aren’t hurting on the inside when you are bleeding. That is an important theme and I embrace it, but I’m not gonna let it run my life, I am still gonna stand for what I need and deserve in a way that helps me and not destroy others. You are your own hero and own worst villain.

What were your thoughts on this movie, did you share any of mine, or are you able to now? Am I wrong in my thoughts? Do you have any differing thoughts? Let’s have a healthy, debate/ conversation in the comments. I hope this wasn’t as rough as I think it is. I missed you all and hope you enjoyed hearing from me as much as I did writing this. I will leave the trailer below for you.

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Hey bookworms! I know I haven’t posted in a bit, but it’s been a bit busy lately. I  know I wanted to try and do month, but winter was busy for me with my Birthday trip and all the overtime it took to save. But, anywho, you’re here for the books not to hear me whine, so let’s get started!

 

January Reads

 1. The Rose Society by Marie Lu

The Rose Society

So for those of you who have seen my signature, will know I had to pick up this sequel due to the cover. I mean can you blame me. I wish I could say I felt the same for the story that I did the cover. Although I love the idea of this series because it sings to my X-Men loving heart. It is like a retelling of it in a way at least to my mind. Adelina reminds me of a friend that really hurt me last year, and I can’t help but want this character to be redeemed. Magiano was the one that kept me reading. I gave the book a 2.8 out of 5 stars.

 

2.  Dumplin’ By Julie Murphy

Dumpling

I gave this book a 3 out of 5 stars. I related to the mother-daughter relationship. In the way the mother assumes she is helpin g the daughter with her opinions that maybe ended a bit blunt and sometimes hurtful without meaning to. The female friendships made me so happy because I feel so many stories are lacking friendships lately. Friendships are starting to become minor points in stories and I don’t want to think they are becoming minor points life as well.

3. Nothing by Annie Barrow

Nothing

I gave this a 2.8 stars although it was a cute coming of age of age it really irked me the names these girls called each other. It wasn’t okay.

4. Between the Lines by Jodi Picoult and Samantha Van Leer

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I gave this one 3.3 stars. I loved the idea of the characters having personalities outside of the ones that were written for them in their story. The romance felt a bit lacking for me, but the story stuff rang true to me. Especially the part where the author said she heard the character’s voices in her head. As a writer myself that is my favorite sound and I miss that the most.

6. Saint Anything by Sarah Dessen

Saint Anything

4 stars! This book reminded me of everything about Dessen’s writing that made me feel less alone when I was younger. It reminded me that I wasn’t alone with the problems I faced. That other people faced them too. This book was like comfort food in her writing style if that makes sense.

6.  Before the Devil Breaks You by Libba Bray

Before the Devil Breaks You

This book got 4 stars from me only because of that cliff hanger! I was ready for this series to be over, but I do how much that I greatly care for these characters so I’m not too angry about getting to see more of their stories.

7. Birthmarked by  Caragh M. O’Brien

Birthmarked

I gave this book  3 out of 5 stars. For a dystopian book I still don’t know what to think of it but it had some really good action parts that kept my attention.

February

1. Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell

Fangirl

3 stars I like the writing process and Cath’s professor’s advice, but I feel this would’ve made more of an impact on me if I read this 4-5 years ago. It did make me miss writing fanfiction and just writing in general. Maybe one day I will feel the pull again.

2. Cleopatra’s Moon by  Vicky Alvear Shecter

Cleopatra's Moon

I gave this book 3 out of 5 stars there was a bit of lag in some parts, but this book reminded me why historical fiction and royalty pulled me in when I was younger. I am hoping this means it has reignited my craving.

3. Made You Up by Francesca Zappia

Made You Up

This book was a 4 out of 5 stars for me it was really good to hear about mental health especially a disorder you don’t hear much about. This story really put you in the main character’s head and shoes. It made you experience her feelings and struggles in such a vivid way.

4. Down Among the Sticks and Bones by Seanan McGuire

Down Among the Sticks and Bones

This shows how horrible of a bookworm I am. I loved the first book and didn’t even know that the next two books were out. I loved learning about the twins and the LGBTQ elements in these books and the backstory and magical realism mixed with the fantasy is my favorite thing ever. It was an amazingly good short devour and I gave this a 4 out of 5 stars and now I need to own these books!

5. Beneath the Sugar Sky by Seanan McGuire

Beneath the Sugar Sky

After finishing the last book and knowing the third was already out. I had to buy the third audio book for myself and it did not disappoint. The world building is AMAZING! 5 out of 5 stars!

6. Marked by PC and Kristin Cast

Marked

4 out of 5 stars because sometimes a reread is all the comfort and happiness you need in the world.

7. One Dark Throne by Kendare Blake

One Dark Throne

I gave it a 4 out of 5 stars. It would have been 5 out of 5 but there were some parts that lost my attention due to lag, but it has all the things to keep me picking up a book. I can’t wait to see what happens at the end.

8. Uglies by Scott Westerfield

Uglies

I have this a 3 out of 5 stars. I think I would’ve enjoyed this more in my teens when I was into dystopian but I only read it on a rare occasions now. It was an interesting twist on conformity though.

9. Finding Audrey by Sophie Kinsella

Finding Audrey

I know I’ve been reading a lot of contemporary, but it’s not my favorite genre truly. I will admit it is easy to read though. For not loving Contemporary I found I love Sophie Kinsella. Her humor and her books always make me laugh. 3 out of 5 stars.

10. City of the Lost by Kelley Armstrong

City of the Lost

I started this book last December but didn’t get to finish it before my turn was up at the library. Let me tell you these plot twists definitely made it worth the wait! 5 out of 5 stars!

March

My favorite month of the whole year! My birthday month! These are the books that helped me get to and celebrate 26!

1. Out of the Easy by Ruta Sepetys 

Out of the Easy

When I say I don’t like contemporary that of course excludes Historical Fiction. I know I am so odd, but historical fiction has always been one of my deepest loves for as long as I can remember. This book was such a great reminder of that. I gave this a 4 out of 5 stars.

2. Unbecoming by Jenny Downham

Unbecoming

This was one of my random picks for the month and I pretty much went in blind because to be honest I think I skimmed the summary. This is a great example of the when going in blind works out great. The story telling and the three perspectives were great for world building and was enough to have flash backs. It was perfect to fill all my fictional cravings when I picked it up. 4 out of 5 stars.

3. NTR – Netsuzou Trap Vol. 1 by Naoko Kodama, Catherine Ross (Translator), Shannon Fay (Adaptation), CK Russell (Lettering)

NTR - Netsuzou Trap Vol 1

This yuri was a little disappointing because it felt Hotaru was too forceful on Yuma. If she was just honest I feel this was honest, maybe even a bit more seductive this would’ve been so much better. I gave this one a 2 out of 5 stars. I might try and see if it’s available at the library instead of picking up and buying the next copy.

4. Citrus Vol 7 by Saburo Uta

Citrus

Although Mei’s and Yuzu’s love did have a forcefulness in the beginning you could tell the underlying feelings were there. I fell behind on this series, but then I remembered it was becoming an anime! So I needed to devour what was out to hype myself up and I was disappointed by neither the adaption or this volume. I gave this one a 4 out of 5 stars.

5. Midnight Jewel by Richelle Mead

Midnight Jewel

Although there was some parts of this book I didn’t like like pretty much retelling the first book… The romance in this one though was hot, and I like the couples with conflict. That argue that does not fall easy are my favorites. They are the more realistic to me and draw me in too easily. 4 out of 5 stars for just the romance alone! Don’t judge me she writes good friction and tension!

6. Bloom into You, Vol. 1 by Nakatani Nio

Bloom into You 1

I loved the idea of this manga that love can grow. It doesn’t have to be hot it can be slow and patient. It was so sweet I gave it a 4 out of 5 stars.

7. Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac by Gabrielle Zevin

Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac

This was a 2.8 stars for me because how fickle Naomi became kinda irked me and ruined the good parts for me.

8. Far from the Tree by Robin Benway

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The tagline got me guys! “For fans of This is Us” which is my mom and my favorite show and it was not a disappointment. The bond between the siblings was so sweet and true. It also hit on adoption which I feel isn’t a topic covered by many books. 4 out of 5 stars.

Well guys that what I read this winter! I am so sorry this took forever to post! I am trying to get better I promise. Have you read any of these? Feel free to let me know in the comments below because I really do miss you all. Have a wonderful week and most importantly Happy Reading!

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Let’s Just Chat: Just a chance to get my words going

Hey Bookworms! I dunno what this post is going to be about or even if it will go up. I just miss you all and wanted to talk. I know this would be better to go on social media with this but I dunno I wanted to make my blog a little more personal. I have a few things on my mind. I really want this year to be a year of growth. A year to impact others. Whether it’s in my personal life or on here. The internet the void where people go to feel like there a part of something different. This is where you can see that you are not alone.

 

I honestly have no idea where this is going, but as much as 2017 was an adventure it did have some rough parts. Family stuff, feeling a lack of growth in my job, taking a risk by trying my relationship again. The things I learned from my roughest years of 2015-to the beginning of 2017 is I can’t live my life wondering what if? My biggest struggle with these realization is not knowing where or even how to begin to start my research.

 

I think that has always been my struggle. RESEARCH. It is hard to implement for me in writing and to keep focused on it. I want to prove to the world that my disability isn’t a huge part of me only a faction. This is why I’ve got it in my head that I need a job where I can leave my mark. I want it to be in my writing but we all need a day job too right?

I want to read and find myself lost in words again. I also want to have words spill out of me again. As much as I want to finish my “Pack’s” story maybe it’s time to pull out someone else’s voice until I can hear there’s again. This isn’t writing block for me anymore, it’s deafening silence and it unsettles me.

I think my mind, creative soul, and heart needs something new to grow. I want to figure out a way to get to Vancouver, Canada. I am gonna bring a notebook for my Birthday Trip in March. I am going to see what the world whispers to me.

I don’t want to feel lost again, I am determined to start finding my path again. Adventure coaxing words and ideas out of me again. I feel everyday I feel closer to finding myself again and becoming the person I need to be.

Is anyone trying to find themselves again this year, or trying to find a way to plan your newest route? Anyone moved to a new country? Anyone feel like you need to break free of the mold people place on you? Let me know in the comments down below as much as I am here to talk, I am also here to listen. Happy Reading!

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