Book Talk: Does Your Mood Affect Your Rating?

Disclaimer: before I start I’m not looking for sympathy with this post, but a little empathy never hurts. Thank you =) Hey bookworms! So I wasn’t planning on posting this tonight, but I feel this discussion will come out better … Continue reading

Genrethon: Day Three Update Along with a Slightly Nervous Rant!

Hey bookworms! I decided to post an update on how far I’ve gotten in this readathon because I need a distraction. Why the need for a distraction, you ask? Well… I have an interview tomorrow! My first one EVER! Yes, I’m 24 and have never had a job. My life has always been school and books. Especially the last five because I wanted out of here, but unfortunately plans got delayed or slightly changed depending on how you want to look at it. Now what makes me more nervous is this job contacted me through one of the sites where my resume was posted, and not through the Bureau of Vocational Rehab… So I have no clue if they won’t discriminate against me for my disability… For instance, my shoes are tennis shoes because it’s the only shoe that offers my ankle support. They aren’t exactly business attire with the rest of my interview clothes. Yes I know it’s illegal to discriminate, but let’s face it the world isn’t perfect and it still happens. Now this isn’t to say this will happen to the company I am interviewed by.

It’s just stuff like this that makes me hyper aware of my Cerebral Palsy. It is part of the reason I get it out of the way first when meeting people. So they can get over solely seeing my disability and instead see me and what I am able to do. I pretty much see myself like my peers. My CP is only a small fraction of me. It doesn’t DEFINE me. If your interested in hearing more of my thoughts of why it doesn’t please let me know in the comments below. Also I am only speaking for myself and not others with my disability because there are various types and degrees of it.

So bookworms to keep my hands busy because I don’t have the ingredients to bake, I decided to do a formal update on my reading progress. Any who hope you didn’t get bored with the mini nervous rant. Onto the books!

Genrethon: Day 3 Update

Finished:

Falling into Place by Amy Zhang

Falling into Place

This book helped me some, but it wasn’t as cathartic as I hoped it’d be! I did give it a 4.5 (5 on goodreads) 5 Stars on Goodreads. I really loved the magical realism of the narrator, but be forewarned this book has triggering moments. It did make me think at the very least.

Hana-Kimi Vol 1 by Hisaya Nakajo, David Ury (Translator)

Hana-Kimi Vol 1

This was a reread from Junior High reading it via my Nook since the first read was a friend copy. This was one of the first mangas I ever read! It was still as cute and funny still but seemed a little slower this time around. I gave it a 4 out of 5 stars. If you’re into Twelfth Night or retellings of it and looking for a manga to read this one is for you! =)

Currently Reading

Simon VS the Homo Sapiens Agenda by Becky Albertalli

Simon vs The Homosapiens Agenda

I am currently on chapter 27 and I’m really loving Simon’s Oreo diet! Seriously I want to eat everything he described! I’m really liking the amount of details and how I can see every setting. It is nice to feel as if I could walk through them! I plan to hopefully be done with it tonight.

What’s Left:

Loyalties by Wendi Kelly and Deborah Dorchak

Loyalties

So I was wrong on my page count I have 300 pages left. I plan to unwind with this one after I finish Simon because my phone will need a break.

Under the Lights by Dahlia Adler

Under the Lights

I will be reading this tonight after my Nook charges. I hope it’s a good book to calm my nerves for tomorrow.

The Beast Within by Serena Valentino

The Beast Within

This one will be read after I finish reading Loyalties because I am trying to read only one book in a  format at a time.

Fated by Alyson Noel

Fated

The same after I finish Under the Lights. I am curious to fall into another paranormal world by Alyson Noel.

Well that’s it for today’s post bookworms! How are you doing in the readathon or just your reading week? Do you have any interview tips for me? If you want to know more about how I feel about CP let me know in the comments down below. Happy Reading!

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30 Day Reading Challenge Days 15&16: It’s Like Choosing a Favorite Friend

30 day reading challenge

Hey bookworms! Sorry I’ve been gone for a few days, but I’ve been having technical issues and pain issues too. Basically me and my computer are falling apart at the same time… Me because of the monsoon season weather and my scars and knee like to act up when it’s about to rain. My computer is just old… But you probably want to hear about books right? I’ll get started on the happier subject. Which days 15&16 were the hardest decisions of my life! It felt like choosing between friends and let’s face it we all know that is wrong! This is a challenge after all which means I have to answer it… The struggle was real guys!

Day 15: Favorite Male Character

So many of these males were part of my developing as a teen and as a person in general. These characters have helped me see that not all problems are solved with harsh words or force. That some males even if rare can see a girl. Not for who she is physically, but on the inside. Some can stay true and loyal friends. Now who am I choosing. I thought long and hard before I finally picked the one who first stole my heart in my teen years:

Adrian Ivashkov from Vampire Academy and The Bloodline Series

FrostbiteBloodlines

Let’s face it he was my first book book boyfriend. I let him go when it came to the Bloodlines series according to my general rule with book boyfriends but that is a different story. In both of these stories Adrian has problems and he has serious flaws. He is/was someone I could hope to find in real life. Someone who given the support can conquer his support and all his vices. He is tall, artistic, sarcastic, a bit crazy, and has this lazy cockiness that makes it something worth getting past. He isn’t the best fighter but will use his abilities to helped his loved ones. Lets face it he is not sane all the time, but neither am I. Mead has a way of painting characters that all be it sexy are people you can find in real life unlike most YA male leads. For the longest time I knew these characters could not exist, but with Adrian I knew there was a chance to find someone like him. Okay and trust me I am revisiting the VA books over the summer to compare his growth in the two series. Plus I want to meet him again for the first time!

Day 16: Favorite Female Character

This was so hard because I am trying not to be repetitive and name the same characters over and over again. I think I have changed my mind at least 5 times, but I am just going to say the one that is popping into my head right at this very moment and go with it!

Bridget Vreeland from The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants Series

The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants

Honestly this series was one of the contemporary books I adored when I was younger. Waiting for the release of the 3rd and 4th after I read the first two. Wanting to know what happened to these girls. Hoping they had advice for me when I faced their challenges. Honestly I relate to each of these girls in a lot of ways. I see parts of myself in each of them, and maybe it’s what I’m facing now that makes me think of Bridget.

She is a lot of time the energy in the group. The sunshine and strength. The one who sees what she wants and goes for it full speed ahead, but then when facing something hard she closes it out and avoids it for as long as she can until she can’t. It hits her and drags her down. Her free spirit ambles in direction in denial because she has lost control. That is how I feel right now dragged down with no self control, but through her sisters and her goals she always finds herself once again. She is flawed and broken. Shiny on the surface, but someone that needs help underneath. I understand this and get how it’s hard to want to reach for help, but she does it and so have I. She will be my role model through this time. She made it through I can too.

Well that is all for now bookworms! Again sorry for being MIA but life happens I guess. I hope you can forgive me! Would you have been able to make these choices, and if so who would you have picked? Who were your favorite characters in the books I mentioned? Maybe you can help add more to my library TBR. I do adore talking about books! Let me know in the comments below. Happy reading!

For my 1st day, and days 1112, 13&14 click on the links!

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Quick Overall Update and Rest of June TBR

Hey Bookworms! Sorry for not posting all weekend, but it was a hard one. I am just hoping this week gets better. I feel set back after having a few weeks of being okay to say the least. It is hard dealing with depression again after 5 years of being okay, but I am trying to stay strong. Even on the good days it is still is there lingering under the surface. The good news is I am taking steps to get better and am proud of myself for getting help. I know I am not always the easiest to deal with in these time, but am extremely grateful for the few who have stuck around I am glad for the support I have found through my blogging and twitter. My readers are helping me a lot and so once again thank you! All of you! I promise my next post will have a happier tone to it.

As for the Readathon:

I got one book done because my mood has made me quite slumpy. I want to scrap all my TBR’s and move to the childhood reads I posted in my Top Ten Tuesday post. I need light and happy reads. As for the Readathon as much as I loved the hosts it wasn’t as active as I’d hoped it would be. Well it was their first time, so I am hoping it just hit some snags. A readathon should be an event where readers are cheering each other on with posts and asking what is read. I hope they do it again with more activity though! As for July I want to participate in at least 2! If anyone knows of any I’d appreciate it so much if they were shared in the comments below =)

Books I read:

I was able to finish one book: The Princess Diaries by Meg Cabot

The Princess Diaries

This is a really cute and happy light book. I love that Anne Hathaway narrates and it just fits the personality of the character introduced in the movie. I do warn readers who are planning to read this that keep in mind that their are major differences. Try to set aside the movie as best as you can when you read and or listen to this book! That being said this book made me giggle and smile so much. So for those of you having a hard time at the moment I definitely recommend this book as a pick me up

I tried to read: 

Thirteen Reason’s Why by Jay Asher

Thirteen Reasons Why

I had to put it down because it was triggering.  I’m hoping when I am in a better place I can go back to it.

Good Reads Reading Goal Status

Even though I am in a bit of a slump I am still ahead of schedule! In fact I have almost reached it! I am 9 books away! I have read 63 out of 72 books. I am tempted to up it, but I dunno how often these slumpy periods will hit.

TBR for the Rest of June

Now most of these will be audio books since I am a bit slumpy, one Ebook, and a few Library books, but I’m hoping to get most of these done before the end of the month!

1. A Clash of Kings by George R.R. Martin

A Clash of Kings

This is the second book in my Buddy Read I’m having with my Book BFF The Paige-Turner. I will be tackling some of this through half audio and half e-book to shake me out of slump

2. Hot Blooded by Nancy Holder and Debbie Viguie

Hot Blooded

I read the first book a while back and found out it was more than one. Lucky for me the Library had it and I plan to read it next =)

3. An Ember in the Ashes by Sabaa Tahir

An Ember in the Ashes

My second buddy read of the month and I know I am more than a little behind my fellow readers but I hope they will forgive me!

4. The Maze Runner by James Dashner

The Maze Runner

Found the audiobook through my Scribd subscription, so since I’m having trouble reading words right now I am giving the audiobook a shot!

5. Echoes of Us by Khat Zhang

Echo of Us

This is a last book in a series and I regret waiting this long to read it! The good thing about waiting so long is you forget who you like, so are not too affected when bad things happen to them. I remember all the characters, but beside the two main characters I do not remember who I like. This will also be a half and half as well between ebook and audiobook

6. Princess in Love by Meg Cabot

Princess in Love

The next book and happily (for me) narrated by Anne Hathaway. I am adoring the lightness of this series =)

7. Frostfire by Amanda Hocking

Frostfire

Another Library book and I have only read the first in the Tyrelle series that this book doesn’t spoil the rest of the series for me. If anyone knows if it will please let me know!

8. Everneath by Jodi Ashton

Everneath

A mythological retelling and also a library book. So I want to try and get this one soon! I don’t want to feel guilty for renewing it again.

9. Blue Moon by Alyson Noel

Blue Moon

A reread from the Library for me since sadly I don’t have my own copy. This was my favorite series in high school and deals with a theme I love: Reincarnation. A lot of people hate on this series which makes me sad because they don’t push through and see reasons in the 2nd book and on.

10. The Little White Horse by Elizabeth Goudge

The Little White Horse

A childhood comfort that I am hoping will make me feel better! I just want to fall in this book and lost in the magic of it

So bookworms that is all for this post! I hope you all managed to stick through this whole post! I just wanted to make up for not posting for so long! I missed you all! Have you read any of these? What are you planning to read the rest of the summer. Comment and let me know down below! I always love to talk especially about books. Have a good week and happy reading!

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Brief Life Updates

Hey bookworms! I would’ve posted this with my Wrap-Up and TBR I posted recently, but my computer decided to misbehave. Anywho I wanted to just talk to you guys and tell you what is going on. School is done after this coming up week excluding my Theory Exam which is due online the 13th, but I really want to try and get it done early. Honestly I am so glad this has been the least stressful set of exams I’ve had in my college/university experience! Speaking of school my last critique for creative writing is on Wednesday! I am nervous, but excited hearing feedback is really pushing me to keep going at it. It is a good yet nervewracking feeling for me to be inspired again. I just don’t want to lose the fire for this one again! I can’t believe fall will be my last semester! By the way was I the only one who didn’t know you have to pay to apply for graduation?

Back to my feelings about words, writing, and books .I posted this on FB earlier because I was looking for inspiration and comfort with my writing, so I thought I would share it:

Watching JK Rowling’s interview with Oprah. Just wanting the inspiration and reminding me why I keep going. I’ve had this dream since I was six. Books and authors have always given me an escape, letting me do things I can’t, and helping me overcome. I hope I can keep on a roll this summer on my piece. I just wish I had someone to cuddle with whilst I watch. Books can change/save/help lives. Leave an imprint on people. I want to do that

Writing and reading have always been where I grounded myself when I was younger, and yes I struggle with letting it do that now that I’m older, but I want to give others hope too. When they feel they have no voice, or words. I have felt like that lately even though I’m having good moments lately.

I said I was going to talk about my journey with my Cerebral Palsy earlier in the month in my previous Life Updates, and this post will contain part of that. I am going to see a therapist on Thursday to get evaluated. A symptom of CP can be depression. I’ve felt it in High School, but brushed it off as low self-esteem and family issues. When I first started college though that’s when it got worse, and my anxiety has gotten worse too especially in crowds. I feel lost and no sense of control… Honestly I hope they agree to see me regularly because I just need to feel I have a safe place to speak. To know what I say won’t be told to another and that someone will just hear me. I hate not having some control, and only knowing in 5 years I want to be far away from here, but no idea where.

There is some good news though I did find somewhere that will help me get a job and plan to get in touch with them as soon as the semester is done. They specialize in helping people work who have any kind of disability, and I just want to stay productive, build a resume, gain experiences, and hopefully new friends.

Well that is all I have to say for now Bookworms. Sorry if this book was a bit all over the place, but I just wanted to talk about the next steps in this journey. I am not my disability, but it is part of me. Sometimes it makes my life difficult, but I want to make a difference. Not to be an inspiration because of it, but because of my passion. Again I am only speaking for my experience with CP not any one else’s. Everyone has a different story. Happy reading bookworms and have a good week!

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