Life Update: Chaos and the Coming Days

Hey Bookworms! I needed to write something and I didn’t know what to write in this fog of sadness and pain. This isn’t just going to be about books, but about my LDR, the weather, a few points about my cerebral palsy, COVID-19, but yes I will talk about books. Let’s get started!

Chaos and the Coming Days

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So first off let me start off by saying today is hard. It was supposed to be my first day with my boyfriend. I work hospitality, so when at work I receive all the updates about what we’re canceling, borders that are closing, and travel bans. When we got the notification that cancellations were happening at least until the 14th of April (it is my weekend, so I haven’t seen any newer updates since Sunday).

I knew on Saturday, I would have to change my ticket. It hurt like hell to do because at this point I haven’t seen him in 4 months.  I was supposed to leave in 2 days at that point to spend, 6 nights, and 5 days together. The most time we have spent together in a while. Not to mention this is the first time in 2 years, we have spent a birthday a part, this is what hurts the worst.

While I have a new flight booked for May with a new flexible change policy, just in case. (I am so grateful for Westjet being so helpful and understanding). I am praying this all calms down by then. My family and friends are all saying at least you are both healthy and safe, but it doesn’t mean it didn’t crack our hearts open.

I am trying to remain patient and hopeful as this is what all LDR’s are built off of. I am sending my positive thoughts out to others separated by these closures. I am trying to find comfort and not jealousy of the couples that are currently together even when it’s hard, as this is what we have to look forward to.

The Weather, Cerebral Palsy, and COVID-19

This is probably one of the few times you’ll hear me talking about my CP because although it a part of me, I try to not let it define me. I also don’t want people to assume my experience with CP is the same as another person with  CP.  Like most disabilities and disorders it is on a spectrum and has different types (which is what I hope anybody who writes about this disability includes this notes because it can set false expectations and be harmful to those who are uneducated).

While COVID-19 is affecting a lot of people with different immune deficiencies, disabilities, disorders, the young, and people over 50.  Some people with Cerebral Palsy do have weakened immune systems, thankfully, I have not been one of those people. I have only been sick at least once a year in my life if that (not including allergies), and some of those were self inflicted by being a stubborn child by and not eating when I was supposed to, often times for a full day, or weather changing rapidly.

With this extended winter we’ve been facing (the groundhog lied…), my body has been paying the price. I have been aching and swelling for weeks as the weather is on the roller coaster it is and possibly having another disability that may tie into this pain (which I can’t get checked until Fall again). I am more afraid of how my body pain is affecting me more this year than it has before than I am of a virus, because I know my body can fight it. I know I am practicing the right things, and I am trying to remain calm, because stress and anxiety can weaken the immune system.

Work

I don’t tend to talk much about work on here. Thankfully I still have work, and I am trying to stay calm and positive again. Putting money in savings and trying to be diligent. I am sending all good thoughts for those of you who can’t go to work and I am hoping my work stays consistent.

Days I am Home

On my days I have off which is a 3 day weekend this weekend because I didn’t feel it was fair to go into work on my birthday this year due to everything that went on last week. I am spending my 28th on March 18th at home, with my family, cake, books, and a movie binge. I know a lot of us are worried with the actual libraries shut down, but there is still Overdrive and Libby if you have WiFi or data access to download when you don’t have access to either.

We have each other, this blogging community, our words to reach each other even when these borders are shut down.

Want to work out, look up exercises to do at home, when I am not in pain I try to move as much as possible.

Board games, so you can keep your mind going, video games, movies and books that will make you think.

Sing, get lost in music, dance, write a poem, if your mind starts to wander in the wrong way redirect it or at least distract it.

Create don’t let your mind focus on the panic as that’s when we become our worst selves. Most importantly be kind, try not to panic buy, to help others who need the resources. This is something I stick buy as I can’t always get out due to my current state.

We are all stronger that the remenants that 2019 is holding over us. I refuse to blame 2020 for this as this started last year hence the name. 2020 is trying to teach us to be strong, calm, patient, and kind. Don’t let 2019’s left overs turn is into scared sheep.

I am going to try and practice all these suggestions, and I hope you all do too. I hope this rant stayed somewhat coherent. Happy Reading Bookworms, stay calm healthy, and safe!

 

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Top Ten Tuesday: Characters I’d Follow on Social Media

Hey Bookworms! I am back again, I am already doing much better than I did last year. I am gonna give myself a pat on the back, and I hope you’re all still following along with me. I wanted to … Continue reading

Friday Reads: Books to accompany me on a Long Weekend

Hey Bookworms! Sorry for being MIA after my streak of posting. It wasn’t by choice I had a schedule change at work that had me working 10 days in a row! I dunno how I am alive right now honestly … Continue reading

Spring Wrap-Up: Books That Kept Me Company During My Favorite Season

Hey Bookworms! I thought since I haven’t done the best with monthly reviews… I think I’ve maybe done one this year? I thought a seasonal wrap-up may make more sense until I figure out my next steps with blogging, writing, working, and traveling. I like sharing what I’ve read because it gives me a chance to look back on how my reading habits have grown change, how I’ve been called to read what I’ve read. So let’s get started!

Spring Wrap-Up: Books That Have Bloomed with Me this Spring

Now before I start, I want to clarify what I count as spring, because even though most go off a calendar. I think it goes more off of the climate of where you live, so for me (since I’ve lived in Vegas all my life) it starts in March and ends in May. These books will begin with books I began in March and the last one I finished in May which was a total of 19 books! I am slightly proud because I just realized that is how many I read in 3 months! Yay me!

1.  Truthwitch by Susan Dennard

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My first audiobook of the season. I loved the friendship, and the essence behind the magic, but the world and what gave everyone their magic or who had what power tended to lose my attention a bit. I didn’t know if it was worth the hype it got entirely as the way I fell in and out some parts did seem a little erratic. I don’t know if I will be continuing it, but overall I gave this book a 3 out of 5 stars.

2. The Great Hunt by Wendy Higgins

The Great Hunt

This book was exactly what I needed when I was in a slump. It kept my attention the whole time and I liked getting to know each of these characters. I loved knowing the royalty, but not knowing when the sequel came out it made me give it a 4 out of 5 stars. I definitely recommend this book to anyone in a reading slump that likes an adventurous tale.

3. The Wolf Boy is Mine Vol. 4 by Yoko Nogiri

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Oh my godI loved this series! It is my new favorite Manga for sure it is gorgeous artwork and for me a relatable series at least with the main love interest. I just finished this series and I already want to read it again! 5 out of 5 stars honestly I’d give it a 10 out of 5 if it was possible.

 

4. Front Lines by Michael Grant

Front Lines

This was definitely an amazing going back in time seeing what would’ve changed if girls were allowed to fight in WWII. It also shows you what bravery looks like and that it isn’t always a simple thing.

5. Bloodhound by Tamora Pierce

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A reread to finish a series and I loved it as much as I did the first time. Tamora Pierce was one of my first examples of what a strong female should be, and Beka is no exception to that rule. Her books were also the first to show me love is love and to show that the LGBT is not something should ashamed or hidden.

6. We are Okay by Nina LaCour

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This book is written beyond goregously, it made me feel every emotion written. I really don’t have much to say besides READ IT! 5 out of 5 stars!!

7. Mastiff by Tamora Pierce

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Without spoiling all I have to say is damn this was an unexpected heartwrenching plot twists. My heart definitely was broken I am still healing over this… 5 out of 5 stars though!

8. Wildflower by Drew Barrymore

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As a lover of her movies I adored getting to know more about her life. If you’re listening to the audio book, be careful because there are times she gets loud at times. The only thing that I didn’t really love is that it was sporadic, I know it fits her personality it wasn’t my favorite as a reader. 4 out of 5 stars.

9.  Masquerade by Melissa De La Cruz

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Another comfort reread it was good to see more of the powers emerging as well as the flashbacks 4 out of 5 stars.

10. Saga Vol 7 by  Brian K. Vaughan (Writer), Fiona Staples (Artist)

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Really amazing the plot twist at the end though!!! I need volume 8! 4 out of 5 stars!

11.  A Mad, Wicked Folly by  Sharon Biggs Waller

A Mad Wicked Folly

I loved this because it definitely introduced me to a period that isn’t touched much on in fiction. The period of the suffragette. I definitely recommend if you love historical fiction. 4 out of 5 stars.

12. The Time of My Life by Cecelia Ahern

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Another reread that I read as a pick me up. I love her books that use magical realism it makes you think outside of the box or even makes you take a step back to look at your own life. 4 out of 5 stars.

13. The Host by Stephenie Meyer

The Host

Another reread and one of my favorite love stories and one I can definitely relate to. Whenever I feel reluctant to believe in love this is definitely one I turn to.

14.  Talking as Fast as I Can by Lauren Graham

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I listened to this on the plane ride back from Vancouver. Her story for me was very inspiring her persistence and what she worked for until she made it is inspiring to any artist. The behind the scenes of Gilmore Girls was also a fun glimpse as well.

15. Up in Flames by Abbi Glines

Up in Flames

I know I don’t like to call things guilty pleasures, and these books aren’t exactly guilty pleasures. They are however simple reads that don’t require too much thought especially as I get older. It also bothers me that these books have to end in a pregnancy. I believe in the New Adult Genre, but I also like when it shows safe sex showing the couples pursuing finding other paths as well. I know not every one thinks like me, so I hope I’m not offending anyone by being honest. Anywho this was a 3 out of 5 stars for me.

16. Rebel by Amy Tintera

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I liked this book, but it didn’t meet what I loved in the first book. There was an overdone cliche near the end that I’ve read in 2 books this year, but this book did twist it to an unexpected way, so it did save it. This was a 3 out of 5 stars.

17. Until Friday Night by Abbi Glines

Until Friday Night

Again same feelings as the previous Abbi Glines book, but I did like some of the topics this touched. 3 out of 5 stars.

18. Revolution by Jennifer Donnelly

Revolution

I really love this book and how it’s not only about healing, but grieving and trying to change the world whether it’s for someone close to you or others. This is a great coming of age book that I adore and I recommend it to everyone. This one is also what got me back into historical fiction. 5 out of 5 stars!

19. Just Listen by Sarah Dessen

Just Listen

Rereading this took me back to high school and how I would just devour contemporary. Sarah Dessen let me know back then that you could come back from whatever broke you. Her books were often ones that kept me going. It was nice to reread and see how far I’ve come.

Well bookworms I’m finally done with this post. I’ve been working on and off on this today for a few hours. What books kept you company this spring? What ones kept a mark on you? Did you reread old favorites? What do you wish to see more of in a genre? Have you read any of these? Let me know in the comments, let’s chat! I hope you have a wonderful week, and Happy Reading!

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T5W: My Two Favorite Things Good Books&Good Music

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30 Day Reading Challenge Day 5: The Book That is My Happy Thought

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Hey Bookworms! It’s day 5 and the weekend! This was another one I’ve struggled to come up with an answer, but thanks to some booktube inspiration helped me realize an answer and a push from a blogger friend to write it: Judith from BookDr3ams! For this book I am going to leave the link of where to buy it. So before I talk about the answer I will link the haul by the awesome booktuber that helped me: Riley Marie

Day 5: A Book that Makes Me Happy

Peter Pan by J.M. Barrie

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This book is by far my favorite classic. I’m going to admit right off the bat I didn’t read this book as a child, but that doesn’t mean I didn’t enjoy it none the less. It is a whimsical and beautiful book that I recommend at any age. So many quotes from this book has gotten me through some rough stuff. I am a total Peter Pan fanatic I love any movie or book adaption and want to read or watch any of them! They are a comfort and a happiness plus a thing of beauty with each adaption. Neverland has been my escape in some of my favorite dreams and I hope to get my hands on this edition soon! It is about finding comfort in childhood to me, but also within that finding the strength to face adulthood no matter how scary. It reminds you of fun, but it is okay to face responsibility too. Although it’s not something we always want to do, we are brave enough to do so. Even in childhood we have responsibility and Peter faces those as well. This book always reminds me to keep facing my dreams. I am going to leave a leave a video to one of my favorite songs inspired by this book as well.

Well that is all for now Bookworms! If you guys know any adaptions I should read let me know please! I hope you enjoyed my day 5 and enjoy the rest of your Saturday happy reading!

PS For Days: 1,2,3, & 4 click here if you’re curious!!

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Friday Reads

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Hey bookworms! It’s me again. I was watching Booktube this morning and saw a few Friday Reads videos, and I thought I would do my own… Well at least the blogging equivalent too it. Friday Reads is a chance to discuss what I plan or hope to read over the weekend. Honestly? I am feeling a little slumpy despite my intake of books. My attention span just to be all over the place or I am just too sleepy to physically read a book. I hope it goes away over the weekend though because I really want to participate in another readathon, but that is a post for Sunday hopefully. So here is what I hope to read over the weekend!

Friday Reads

1. The Orphan Queen by Jodi Meadows

The Orphan Queen

This is library book and it is due next week. I only am in 2 chapters in, but it is good so far plus the cover is pretty! So yea hoping to finish it this weekend!

2. A Clash of Kings by George R.R. Martin

A Clash of Kings

I’m doing a buddy read with Paige from The Paige-Turner. We read 12 chapters a week from each book and cheer each other on, so I want to finish at least 12 chapters by Sunday

3. A Court of Thorns and Roses by Sarah J Maas

A Court of Thorns and Roses

This was my personilized Uppercase book for May, so I hope to finish this one up by Monday at the latest because My  June one gets here!

4. Everneath by Brodi Ashton

Everneath

This one is due on the 20th so I need to also hurry up and read it. I hope it is as good as the author painted it to be at the book Festival in October!

5. The Princess Diaries by Meg Cabot

The Princess Diaries

I have the audio book from the library, so I’m hoping it pulls me out of my slump like audio books have lately.  I plan to start it in a bit =)

So Bookworms, that is what I plan to read this weekend! What is on your reading agenda? What do you do to fight a slump? Have you read these? Which should I look forward too most? Let me know in the comments! Another post will be up soon! Happy reading!

PS: Just for fun here is what I’m currently listening to! Does anyone know if there are any Swan Princess Retellings book wise?

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