Let’s Just Chat: Just a chance to get my words going

Hey Bookworms! I dunno what this post is going to be about or even if it will go up. I just miss you all and wanted to talk. I know this would be better to go on social media with this but I dunno I wanted to make my blog a little more personal. I have a few things on my mind. I really want this year to be a year of growth. A year to impact others. Whether it’s in my personal life or on here. The internet the void where people go to feel like there a part of something different. This is where you can see that you are not alone.

 

I honestly have no idea where this is going, but as much as 2017 was an adventure it did have some rough parts. Family stuff, feeling a lack of growth in my job, taking a risk by trying my relationship again. The things I learned from my roughest years of 2015-to the beginning of 2017 is I can’t live my life wondering what if? My biggest struggle with these realization is not knowing where or even how to begin to start my research.

 

I think that has always been my struggle. RESEARCH. It is hard to implement for me in writing and to keep focused on it. I want to prove to the world that my disability isn’t a huge part of me only a faction. This is why I’ve got it in my head that I need a job where I can leave my mark. I want it to be in my writing but we all need a day job too right?

I want to read and find myself lost in words again. I also want to have words spill out of me again. As much as I want to finish my “Pack’s” story maybe it’s time to pull out someone else’s voice until I can hear there’s again. This isn’t writing block for me anymore, it’s deafening silence and it unsettles me.

I think my mind, creative soul, and heart needs something new to grow. I want to figure out a way to get to Vancouver, Canada. I am gonna bring a notebook for my Birthday Trip in March. I am going to see what the world whispers to me.

I don’t want to feel lost again, I am determined to start finding my path again. Adventure coaxing words and ideas out of me again. I feel everyday I feel closer to finding myself again and becoming the person I need to be.

Is anyone trying to find themselves again this year, or trying to find a way to plan your newest route? Anyone moved to a new country? Anyone feel like you need to break free of the mold people place on you? Let me know in the comments down below as much as I am here to talk, I am also here to listen. Happy Reading!

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Let’s Chat: Life Update and Currently Reading

Hey bookworms! I know I say this every time, but I am trying to get better at being a constant or at least regular at this.

 

I hope your morning/day/ evening is going well depending where ever you are. It is currently Monday morning here AKA my Sunday. I was going to wait till later to write with my boyfriend to wake up to have a writing date (just sitting with each other on Skype or Facebook messenger for an hour and writing whatever we want), but I woke up to hear about the Shooting in Las Vegas (where I live but a 20ish mins away) on the Strip it left me a little shaken, so positive thoughts to everyone in my city. I don’t want this blog to end up too sad, but if you guys can all send positive thoughts to the ones affected that’d be great.

Anywho life has been on a good patch lately, me and my boyfriend have found our way back to each other, I’ve been to Vancouver twice this year, recently for his Birthday in September and I swear it’s not  just him but every time I hit the tarmac and am officially in Canada it makes me feel at home. I love Vancouver and how I look at nearly everything and to me it feels like a story waiting to be written. Especially since it’s the kind of place where if you wanted to get away for a day or two, hop on the ferry and your there in 2 hours. Honestly it made me want to pick up historical fiction being in Victoria getting lost in the awe when we went to Craigdurroch Castle. The history and seeing the way that this building change to fit the every need that was needed from it. How can you not want to explore and adventure out in the world? I want to live in Vancouver so bad I can practically taste it. So that’s my goal in the next 2 years of my life, but then part of me starts to wonder if 25 is starting to late in life to do this? I dunno I hope not, so what I’m asking you all in the way of advice. Have any of you moved to Canada from the states or even from a different country than where you’re originally from? How did you go about doing it? I know it’s possibly gonna be a lot of paperwork and a lot of work it’s not something I’m scared of.

Also another question that I am concerned about is the use of Transit because being in my chair for 3 days was not easy on my back and hips. Here I use Paratransit a system for those with disabilities where the bus picks you up and drops you off where you need to be. It is a ride share system, so rides can tend to get on the lengthy at times, but it is my independence even if it can have it’s drawbacks, so for my Canadian readers (which hopefully I have) do you guys have a similar system that I can look into?

An update on my writing and reading life as well. I need to stop making excuses and sit down and just do it. Writing and reading used to be my escape from stress, life, it was protection from myself or whatever was currently getting at me. I’ve decided to start carrying a notebook with me and setting down an hour to write a week. No matter what it is blogging, poetry, quotes, or even my current WIP. It makes me sad I haven’t touched it in almost a year. I want my writing to leave a mark, let others know they don’t have to face it alone, or when they have to there is always a safer place to be where you can conquer other dangers along side others. Writing is coping it is letting my dark know that I am stronger than it is, or if it feels stronger I can give it an outlet. I hope I can stick to this new commitment. I feel it will help push me forward again see more of what I can do with the world.

Now that the life stuff is out of the way if you are still with me. Here is what has been keeping my literary world alive lately:

Currently Reading

1.  American Gods by Neil Gaiman

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I am really loving this book and hoping I can finish it before it’s due back on Overdrive. Neil Gaiman is one of my favorite authors for a reason his way of writing and his use of details, it just sucks you in.

2.  A Dog’s Journey by W.B. Cameron

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I bought this for the ferry ride for the trip to Victoria and it was perfect to keep our attention for 2 hours. It had me giggling and smiling at antics and it is just a light book that is something you can go to for ease.

3. Moon Chosen by PC Cast

Moon Chosen

Yes I am still reading this chunky thing and lets hope I can get it done before the end of the year. It is good but I’ve been quite the slow reader lately and although it makes me sad a bit, but I am try not to be hard on myself about it.

Well bookworms that’s it for now and I have finished this post now with way too many distractions as it is almost 2:30 PM. I am gonna go get dressed and go grocery shopping and face the fact that tomorrow is another work day. I hope it is an easy, quick, and as stress free for all of us as possible. I will try and get my summer wrapup done soon, so you can see what I’ve been doing besides work and sleep. I am still kinda alive.

If you want to see what few pictures I was able to get in Canada follow my Instagram and see some of my adventure. I promise when I get my new phone hopefully next weekend, I’ll be a better picture and video taker on my next adventure. Let me know if you enjoyed this post, have any advice, and of course what you’re currently reading in the comments! I miss you all like crazy. Let me know if you’re still here. Have a good week and as always, Happy Reading!

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Book Talk: I’m Slumping Again and Life Updates

Hey bookworms! It’s me Chantal the little short redheaded book blogger that used to blog a lot more.. Hope I’m not fading from your memory jk… Kinda… It’s time for a random book talk even though I know we’ve talked … Continue reading